This is It !

SO . . . this is it ,

My Last Blog ! well to end things im doing great ;

everything is swell . lol . i know b4 i said No more Boys but i met

this one that rlly does make me happy . i can confide in him as a friend && also

have my needs fulfilled ; ) wink wink .

hahah jk but yeah he's great. Soccer is also coming along very very very

well . Hope it stays like that. the only negative so far is that ppl are still talking. but hey that's life right ? ! well anyways ily && Happy Holidays !!!

adios ;

life . . .

life :
–noun
a corresponding state, existence, or principle of existence conceived of as belonging to the soul: eternal life.

the general or universal condition of human existence: Too bad, but life is like that.

the period of existence, activity, or effectiveness of something inanimate, as a machine, lease, or play: The life of the car may be ten years.

a particular aspect of existence: He enjoys an active physical life.

animation; liveliness; spirit: a speech full of life.

resilience; elasticity.

the force that makes or keeps something alive; the vivifying or quickening principle: The life of the treaty has been an increase of mutual understanding and respect.
16.
a mode or manner of existence, as in the world of affairs or society: So far her business life has not overlapped her social life.

the period or extent of authority, popularity, approval, etc.: the life of the committee; the life of a bestseller.

anything or anyone considered to be as precious as life: She was his life.

high school drama - i tried to stay out of !

Why is it that im always having boy trouble ! even when i layed off of them for a while it always seems to come back . like this one boy smitty ( just to protect his name) ; he has well had a girlfriend &. w/us it just started out as just a friendship then turned into a i wanna get to know you relationship. So one day we were texting while he was at his gf house &. he called me baby ; so she found out &. flipped ! She was crying &. everything. now i didn't feel bad cause all he said was baby. nothing bad. right ?? well to go one . . . . she writes me on fb saying " thanks for flirting w. my boyfriend " , now me being mature for my age thought it was kinda childish so i left it alone. but then she kept posting stuff talking bout me soo i did what i had to do &. went off on her stupid ___ . But anyways me &. smitty get to tlking bout the situation &. i realized that he seems a lil off. So i said " Hun, i can tell your still feeling her . If you want me too i will talk to her &. let her know what happened soo nothing comes off the wrong way . " He agreed . So i did, I didn't apolpgize cause i didn't feel the need too. But anyways , today's the first day back from our thanksgiving break &. it seems a lil off . but its w/e my day must go on right . Well coming from lunch her &. her lil friends are talking bout the situation &. one says' " is that the hoe " . Now as of right this sec. Im SUPERRRRRRRR PISSED ! &. on top of that Smitty isn't acting his normal self , so im fed p w/ this drama w. him ! he's done !!! &. So am I . . . NO MORE BOYS - OFFICIALLY TIL THE END OF THE YEAR. !

Happy thanksgiving everyone . Hope your day is full of food &' thanks .
Im thankful that your in my life even though i am a crazy one . lolss .

xoxo
yanai

Just an Instinct

As of now i officially got blogspot mobile. woot woot

Countdown til im back in New York " )

YAY !!!!

thanksgiving is literally around the corner. lol im sooo soo so ready. ahhhhh. i got 6 more days til im back homee .

im soo ecstatic !

day 1 : okay so, so far today's not good. im not feeling anything at all, like im hating life. Just thinking bout what's going on at home, had me teary eyed. i hate that my mom lost her job. i never thought

that when you loose a job you lose so much more. this sucks ! people who i thought were my friends are just laughing at the situation like it's a joke. i mean i don't want sympathy but it'd help a little right now. but on the brighter side i have soccer practice today && a dinner date. lol but the thing with the guy is. i don't really like him. he's sweet && all but just not my type. but whose to say No to a dinner date. lol . not me at least.

day 2 : So today's better than it was yesterday ! which is great. i talked w. my lil sis bee.Rambo && i feel much much much better. Soccer is going great ! omg. && i been tlalking to this one guy for a min. we can call him Smitty - lol. but he does have a girlfriend & normally i wouldn't talk to a guy that has a girlfriend but it's something that i REALLY like about him. & last night he said "baby, im really feeling you & i want to be w. you & right now it's up to you to decide our 'fate' . So like i really wanna go out w. him but how do i know that he's not gonna do the same to me as he did to her current girlfriend?

day 5 : Soo it's day 5 which means tomorrow at midnight, i leave for NEW YORK . yay I can't waitt . . . . ahhhhhh ! im so ecstatic , but on the less brighter side. im sickk !. i missed school yesterday bc of it - pooo . yesterday was the worst day everr. im so glad it's over, even tho i still feel like ____ .

woah, it's been a min, since i've blogged. well too catch you up on some things. im actually fine. love is still on a search but im searching less. focusing on school is taken more of my time, being that i graduate next yr, maybe even this yr. still NO JOB ! -need a lot of help on that. lol. im bypassing drama daily cause life's too short. " ) Road Trip To NEW YORK ! ahhh. sooo ready... okay well i found a new love. SOCCER! OMG, i love it, even tho practices are pure torture!!!! But it's all worth it in the end. hopefully i at least land a spot on JV. soo pray for me!

-peace&love

xoxo

who's phony , who's fake - that's the type of people i hate ,

smash into you = )

Head down as I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground.I should I find myself in love racing the EarthAnd I'm soaked in your love ,ohAnd love was right in my path, in my graspAnd me and you,belongI wanna run and smash into youI wanna run and smash into youIt flows...what I hear no one else has to know.'cause I know in what we have is worth first place in goldAnd I'm soaked in your love,And love was right in my path, in my graspAnd me and you, belongI wanna run and smash into youI wanna run and smash into youSmash into you[ Beyonce Lyrics are found on www.dapslyrics.com ] Head down as I watch my feet take turns hitting the groundI should, I'm in love and I'm racing the EarthAnd I'm soaked in your love ,ohAnd love is right in my path ,in my graspAnd me and you,belongOh, I wanna run and smash into youI'm willing to run, smash into youI'm willing to run and run and run and runOh Oh Oh Oh Oh OhI'm ready to run and run and run and runOh Oh Oh Oh Oh OhI wanna runSmash into youI'm willing to runSmash into you

Let the Good Times Roll

creme de la creme

my barbies

gabby <3 ( my mexican) lol

homecoming '09


"life's not measured by the number of breaths you take,

but by the number of moments that take your breath away."-anonymous

"Mother"

Sooo recently i been posting stuff about my "mother" on facebook ,
and i do apologize for doing that
but i am not apologizing for what I said ;
i meant it...
you are self-fish & you only think about yourself
when a women becomes a mother they give up
the I's for Us ,
& if it aint bout you then you dont seem to care,
i love you & all but i hate the fact that you treat us like
were your friends .
WERE YOUR KIDS

my bestfriend ?

I called you my bestfriend for quite some time, & we lived on that .
But since the "accident" ive been drawn closer to you then before,
your Smile , your laugh , your hugs , your presence ,
amuses me way stronger then it did before.
you & I both noticed the intensity when were together & our weakness
when were apart . but its just your friendship i admire & for that i dont wana loose that part.
but theres this shadow in me that tells me to go for it.
but my mind wont let me.
over thinking the cost -
that if all else fails we loose our
friendship & trust
& my heart is too weak to let that go .
i love you w. all my heart that i just cant bare to see
us fail or fall apart .

BeeSymoneRambo !

BeeSymonef'ingRambo.

My sophmore, my love, my little sisterr.

what to say what to say.

gosh i love youu !

1st blck, bud-

lmao, sitting in 1st blck tlking bout

these girlss ...

( you kno who i mean )

w. one that gets her hair done by " doe-minicans "

when she kno damn well her hair is rough & tough.

gosh i love youu !

gosh i love youu !

my mistake for trusting you !

she trusted him
loved him
care for him
then all of a sudden
she no longer knew who this man was
gradualy turning into a monster
she doesn’t know who this person is anymore
fallen into darkness
she never thought this would happen
her eyes letting out an ocean
hurt
he took the only innocence dat she had
lost in darkness
she cries
why did he do this??
a man thought to be trusted
no she sees the truth
he never really cared
all he did was hurt
traumatized
she stil cries in the dark
hoping someone can free her from this misery
she lays so deep in her pain
feels like ders no way out
her eyes blood shot red
tears all on her face
this isnt the man she knew
for the man she knew wouldn’t hurt her
but she came to the realization dat she never knew him at all
her trust for him immediately began to fal
now frightened of the thing she used to think she knew
he took her happyness
now deep inside her soul
she’s skared
physicaly
emotionaly
skared
how could the one u trust do such things to an innocent soul??
has he no heart??
for he has internaly killed her
now making her trust for people so low that mabe she wil never trust again
this wasn’t a man
for he was just a form of hell on earth
now she lay in the darkness
waiting for someone to bring her to light
lord bless her soul
for she’s not at fault for the hurt